Anxiety made me cancel my husband’s anniversary gift

In a couple of days, my husband and I will be celebrating our 7 year wedding anniversary. I decided that this year we would exchange traditional wedding gifts and for 7 years you are supposed to give copper. I found some very nice copper drinking mugs on Amazon that I thought he would like and ordered them. 

My husband thought the idea was silly but I told him I ordered him something. Fast forward to today, he gives me a small box and tells me “Happy Anniversary”. Inside was a beautiful copper pen engraved. It was so touching and thoughtful and I loved that it wasn’t a typical gift.

Earlier today, my anxiety told me that my present I ordered him was stupid and that he wasn’t going to like it or play along with the copper giving. I cancelled it. I cancelled it hours before he gave me my beautiful thoughtful gift.

I felt like complete dog shit. I couldn’t imagine why I would have let my anxiety take center stage and tell me the right thing to do was to cancel the whole order. I let anxiety tell me my money was good elsewhere. I let anxiety rule my day today.

I re-ordered the gift I cancelled tonight because I am not letting anxiety win.

Thanks for reading,

Heather